My message of Thanks! Also a special letter for the PTLS women..

Hello out there!
I just have to do a post simply to say to each and every one of you, THANK YOU!
I almost burst out in tears reading all the responses I get from you all.. I feel so honoured that I can be some form of help.. This is what I vowed when I went to go for my reversal after discovering what PTLS was... That I would keep reaching out to women all around the world.. Letting them know they aren't alone.. Letting them know they aren't 'going crazy'..
I am full of emotion as I type this actually because I am so moved by the courage PTLS women have..
If you suffer with PTLS whether you have known for a while or just discovered, here is what I want you to know right now.. (From my  own words & experience)..

            
          I Understand...

You were once a lot stronger than you are right now. I understand. You were so much more active, bubbly, predictable with a higher zest for life.. You may have had some troubled times in life but what on earth is all this trouble stacking up on top and inside you like unwashed dishes? Why you? .. I understand..

You find yourself now sitting with a friendly familiar face and watching that persons face change to something else.. While you rattle off all the unbearable things going wrong with your body, your mind and your life.. You realise that familiar face just don't seem to familiar any more and feel so alone..

I understand you feel like a raging hypochondriac.. A woman who has her own body mould in the chair at the Dr's surgery.. Possibly seen more specialists than you could remember.. The silent tears you cry when your strength breaks in the still of the night that you just don't want to wake up another day feeling like this 'monster'..

Just the same as the Dr's results that claim "I'm sorry but the tests come back 'normal' so how about you try this anti-depressant now?" I understand..

I understand how life feels like the light is caving in to doom and despair.. I understand because I have been there.. 

I understand how maybe you never felt you looked good enough and now you find you certainly have a reason to feel disgusted in your reflection.. What happened to you? You look aged, baggy, pale.. sick.

I understand all this.. As well as the reflection, there is what you feel that you can't see.. That pain and discomfort surely would make a grown burly man fall to his knees and weep..

Maybe it's age.. like a few of your friends suggested? Or maybe those women chattering about how child birth does this kind of stuff to a woman were right? Or were they? The insanity you go through wondering.. I understand.

Will you ever have the doting eyes you had for your partner/husband again, or is this just 'what happens' as the relationship goes on..?

Is the rope you are dangling on to going to stretch any further?? Because frankly it is feeling so weak and what on earth is this word 'strength'?? You are sinking in the sand... I understand.. 

So now that you know you are not alone, the tears drain out of you.. You want to show all them bastards that you are NOT CRAZY! You want to take this blog to your bedside table so you know it is not a dream.. You want action immediately..! This is everything you have needed to find and read!!

But wait............................!!

How do you know if the reversal will really work? What if it don't? The Dr's are going to think you have really, truly 'lost the plot' now!!

Your anxiety rises just thinking of these things!! 

PLEASE SWEETHEART............. Take a deep breath... Another.... Have a sip of water.. It is ok, I understand.. Because this was once a lot like me..

                                                                                            ~Written By N.P.Smith 2014.

I knew in my heart God led me to it and I had nothing to lose.. I went right ahead with my reversal and I am now PTLS free.. Was the recovery a fairytale? No. It was patience. But I will tell you that I knew it had worked the moment I opened my eyes after reversal surgery. I knew I was a "woman" again!
Not this raging woman-man-monster-losing-my-mind!
I can't describe that feeling to you.. But If you know yourself well enough to have found that you have this horrible condition called Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome, you will certainly experience the immense enjoyment of welcoming yourself back when a reversal takes place..
Stay strong! Pray! You are not alone.. You can read through this entire blog to read my full story.. You can join my FACEBOOK Page... It is hard to answer everyone individually on this blog but I find a lot more success with private messages on the Facebook Page.. Every one of you struggling or overcoming is strength! Never forget that..
P.s. I am going in leaps and bounds, but I will save that for next time :-)

Learning curbs for Life After PTLS

Hello!

I am attempting to blog from my iPhone so please bare with me!
I am sorry I haven't been blogging more, life has been interesting to say the least in my recovery from PTLS.
I will attempt to post some update pictures, weather I am successful or not is another story.
Ok, the recovery is nearing the end. I never thought it would be such a journey with recovery.
I have discovered so many things! My husband and I have been deeply into surrounding health issues due to PTLS in my recovery. I believe we could write a book on it!
One thing I truly want to stress that we have discovered is that when I had PTLS, I was put on high doses of acid reflux (GERD) medications. Names such as Aciphex, Pariet, Nexium, And others alike may be recognised by you?
These drugs are Proton Pump Inhibitors. They are extremely dangerous and we believe they have indeed made my recovery from PTLS a lot more challenging. I feel it would be safe to say that most women have been prescribed PPI's. considering PTLS harbours an array of gastrointestinal issues its no surprise a doctor would encourage that.
Basically, we have discovered that GERD/Acid Reflux is due to the stomach producing too much acid. So high stomach acid. Ironically, low stomach acid actually mimics very similar symptoms!
A way to test this at would be to simply take 1-2 tablespoons of lemon juice on your next attack. If it eases it or doesn't seem to worsen the attack, you may be suffering from low stomach acid rather than high stomach acid.
What happened to me is, after being on PPI's for 3-4years, I had very little stomach acid. This leads to so many things in the digestive tract. Having my reversal made me realise this added issue.
As I started to actually be able to eat after my reversal things weren't going in the digestive area. So many other absolutely amazing things were happening and changing that I put it down to 'time'.
Turns out, my stomach acid was that low I could not digest foods. The protein enzymes in the foods were far too much for my body to handle so I ended up with intollerance to most things I put in my mouth. Bloating, constipation, abdominal pain etc.. I was very dry in the mouth and getting malnourished quickly due to my body not being able to break down foods. Also having a severe lack of saliva.
After researching in and around we actually found that PPI's are extremely dangerous drugs!
Here is a link you might want to read Dangers Of PPI's

After discontinuing the use of PPI's, I then 

needed to go on Magneisium and Calcium 

supplements.

Finding natural foods that increase my salivary 

glands and stomach acid. Things like black 

olives, 
sea salt on meals, lemon juice etc.. 

I then looked into HCL, which is hydrochloric

acid. It aids in building up stomach acid and 

digestion..wow! What a journey! 

Several months of that and I have really 

good saliva again! I have a lot of poop that 

needs to be eliminated due to it all too. I have 

added loads of fibre on top of water to my diet.

My husband has also been massaging my 

colon in a particular way that aids all the 

yucky stuff to move down and out!
This is where we are at with it. 

I had to stress this to women suffering from 

PTLS or who are recovering from it! That is 

the only thing that has not yet balanced in 

my body but we are certainly at the end of 

that tunnel now. 

Apart from that, life has been much better 

than last year! I have a great deal of 

emotional/mental effects due to PTLS, it has 

definitely scarred my life but I am no longer in 

its grasp. 

I can't stress enough how I would sacrifice 

anything I had - a house, car everything of 

material possession to get a Tubal Reversal if I 

was in that tight position. 
My life has changed so much. I've learnt so 

much. 

The PPI's made my gastrointestinal recovery 

such a challenge! But I'm nearing the end and 

felt I needed to get it out there.

My 3 year anniversary of my Tubal Reversal is 

on the 31st of August 2013! Not far at all! I just 

can't believe how far I have come. 
I'm sorry if the layout of this post is weird, it's 

different than the laptop. I'll attempt to upload 

some photos! :)

Right at the end of this blog I realised I could get the blogger app! Haha! Here I was trying to type a post on the full site on my iPhone! 

The above photos, my favourite part was standing inside one leg of my old tight track pants!!