Hey there all,
Well it is now coming up to my 1 year post reversal day. I am going to take some more pictures.
I am still losing weight, it has slowed abit over winter I think but neverless, it is still coming off!
But I am alive! I am coping! I am still amazed even if some days are scary!
I really have to think sometimes of exactly where I was during the years with PTLS and how I adapted to coping through several different things.
My husband has been such an amazing support. He reminds me of the things I forget and exactly how far I have come in these past 10 months. Which is very, very far!
I have had some hard emotional issues to work through, issues that have been there a very long time. It has been very challenging. I have days where I swear PTLS is "coming back" or that on a really tough day that "things just arent changing anymore"
But they certainly are!
I have come to the relization that it is winter! There are limited things we can do outside the home in this wet, miserable, gloomy weather so that has been my set back.
I think that being restricted indoors and wanting the usual "winter snuggles" has put me in a position where I am fearing PTLS returning.
I will not deny it is a scary, depressing fearful feeling to have but again, I need to realize that although I am healed of PTLS, it is still apart of my emotions, my physical pain etc.. Example, if I suffer with a normal headache, I instantly fear PTLS surfacing because the pain reminds me of it. It takes me back every now and then to those suffering moments I endured all them years..
It is tough stuff spiritually and emotionally..
On the physical front things are just bliss!
My cycles are still adjusting slightly but they are going very smooth.
Being able to get out of bed in the morning and sleep at night is awesome!
I really only ever "feel" like I have a certain amount of PTLS symptoms before my periods but that is easing each month.
My reflux is even less bothersome now which is great, I actually only have to medicate myself for it once or twice a week which half of that is precautionary!
Compared to taking a tablet 2-3times a day it is a huge change!
I am enjoying the closeness to my kids and husband so much and I am enjoying having the energy to cook, clean and physically play in the family games!
I am going to make a overview folder of every shred of evidence I have that PTLS exists and send it to the GYN who has seen me through the birth of all my children and also performed the tubal ligation in the first place.
I am hoping he will want a deeper look at this..
My goal is to make a foundation for PTLS and I truly want every woman to, by law, be informed of the risks of a tubal ligation.
